Life After You.

Just like how Daughtry sang it, " No, there's no life after you. " Well, it is true in a way. But in my case, my life started after I'm with you. Yea, this blog is gonna be all about us. It's gonna be a long one. ^^

Let's go waaaayyyyy back~

I first met you after some time at Station 1 cafe. Chinese New Year, meet up with Frog and * i can't remember who*. So there you are.. Sitting there.. Beautiful as ever. Something happened, but I'm not sure. I started going out with your gang every Friday night, NOT because of you, of course. =P

The power of gossip, unimaginable. All it takes was just one innocent sentence : hey, she's not bad huh. And then people started to misunderstand that I fell in love with you. At least, you did. Started to dodge me, feeling all awkward when we meet. I figure, things couldn't be more worse. Or so i thought.

After days of thought, I decided to clear things between us. Only to find out later that the person who replied me and say that you already have a boyfriend is not you. That person, i still despise.You have no right messing with others handphone, especially when it comes to replying message. Who do you think you are, when you sent me those message? I bet you feel pretty proud when you did it huh? Think you're doing her a favor? Think you're protecting her? Think you're clever? Well, you think too much. No offence to her friends though, it's just what I feel. Word of advice : Mind your own damn business.

I'm straying off path here, so where was I.. Oh so after that incident, things were normal again. We started talking, teasing each other. We're cool. And that's when I slowly fell in love with you.

Of course I didn't have the guts to tell you.. Not after that incident.. I think that.. What we're having right now is good enough.. Wouldn't want to mess it all up right.. So I kept quiet.. I think some of my friends know about it..Not sure though. Oh well, it's not important.

You know, it's been so long since I celebrated my birthday with my friends. Super excited when I know that we're going to Port Dickson together and celebrate there. Before that, I did get a surprise party from a few friends. A cake made of cream and cream only. >< That day the only taste I felt is cream.. And then it's the PD trip. Fun trip, had my best time there. After that trip only people told me that actually you already has feelings for me. Excuse me, how was I to know all these when nobody tell anything. It's not like I can read your mind or anything right. Anyhow.. I guess even if I did confess, I'd probably be rejected cause there's too many flowers in my heart. >< No one to blame, but myself.

And so.. I didn't know about it.. You guys didn't give me any hints..
So, life goes on~

Few months later, the thing I feared the most came true. You are together with another guy. And he went out with us on friday night. Just the sight of you two together makes me wanna die. not sure if I did a great job at acting but I sure hope I did enough. The feeling, the sadness, the 'sour'-ness that I felt. It hurts. But who can I blame when I feel all these things, I didn't take any action and now you're with him. You seemed happy. I'm not. I couldn't show it, so it's kept away. I'm starting to regret. Regret not letting you know how I feel. Seeing you together with him, it kills me inside. So all I can do now, is wait. Or should I?

Didn't give much thought about what I'm going to do after this. I guess time is going to decide for me. I guess I was quite busy with something to keep my mind of this things. But still everytime that I think that You're together with someone else. Something stuck at my throat, and I.. It was not a pleasant feeling.

Sometimes, I can be stupid. Like the time when I went out with you and a few friends to solve your problems.
Okay, let's look at the situation here again. You're having problems with your boyfriend, you ask for our suggestions. The rational things for me to say would've been encouraging you to break off with him right, but I didn't. I guess, it's better to see you happy with him than to break off and feel sad. But things became worse and finally it ended.

It's another few weeks without anything special happening. I certainly hope you don't have another guy in your life. Things are perfect the way they are now for me. At least I still get to see you every weekends.

Now~~~~~ The post appeared.

Continue on the next post. Stay tuned for more. ^^

I'm back..

It has been awhile.. No wait, it has been a long while. Let's see what I'm busy doing these few months.. The usuals, studies.. exams.. and I don;t know what to write about. So that's why I'm missing in action. Oh yea, one very important changes in my life. Finally, after the long wait, she's finally mine. <3

I guess u guys that were there at the spot know about the details very well. Recorded the whole thing even. XD 18-9-2010, the most important date in my life. I love you and I always will. Forever.

Exams.. Well that almost killed me. You know, it's always the same thing. The first week of new sem, you tell yourself: Alright, this is a new sem, I'm gonna work my socks off, get good grades, bla bla bla.. Before you know it, it's final exam. And I'm all worried like hell. And then it's all over.. I just hope I pass everything.

So now I'm having my holidays for 3 months. I'll TRY to blog more often.

Before I end this.. I just wanna say that the future.. It seems so long, so vast, so unexpected. One things for sure,   I will be with you until the day I die. Forever yours, faithfully.